Welcome to all people?
I couldn't run on Wednesday. My body was too heavy to get off the couch. Tuesday, I ran and then volunteered for poll monitoring from 3-7pm. Unfortunately there were things I observed that were illegal and apart of voting intimidation whether it was covert or overt, the intimidation still happened. Afterwards, I had a drink with some of the volunteers and we started to watch some of the results come in.
Afterwards I left and met up with some friends and drank some more to watch more of the elections results and I felt ill. I was stocked, angry, upset, terrified, and I cried. So many emotions.
I couldn't run on Wednesday. I just couldn't. I didn't even want to go into work. I went and I told myself I was going to be pretty today. If I did nothing else. Made myself pretty and got bagels for my faculty, the least I could do.
Wednesday, the amount of students who were upset, scared, crying, for themselves, families, their future was overwhelming and so real. They needed to process all that had happened.
I told them that this was like going to the alter, expecting to be with someone and then getting dumped at the alter. Your confused, upset, angry, hurt, and just at a loss. That was this was like.
Then I reminded them that in Massachusetts marijuana is not legal and we'll have weed Fridays. At least that put a smile on people's faces.
So today( Thursday), I knew I had to get up and run. Otherwise I wouldn't and I know that would start a pathways to a bad pattern that I may not get out of.
Running has been my touchstone to deal with my grief. This was another kind of grief. I slowly laced up and hit the pavement. Once I started to move and run and hear the music....I just started to think and really think hard.
I was so in a zone and releasing my grief and being so pissed that I was running an 8:30 and 8:50 min mile pace. LOL
As I was running I saw this " Welcome to all people". I thought, how is that going to get played out with the man elected as president wants to build a wall, make all Muslims carry an identification card, get rid of gay rights, keep urban black and brown folks locked up and regulated. My students, who are American citizens worried they might be deported because their parents aren't citizens.
This country has a long history of whom is welcomed. This processing all of this. Holding on to my motto of " always be pretty" :). Running this morning reminded me of that