Debate of Misery and Staying in your lane
Monday, start of the week. I'm ready to run in the am... but it was raining. Hardcore raining. I don't run in the rain unless it starts to rain while I am running or if it rains while I'm running a race. This morning at 4:45am it was coming down hard.
Then I go through the whole mind debate of misery. "Do I run today or not?, Should I go back to bed?, I'll sleep for 30 mins, then check on the weather, I should sleep in and run later this evening, since I didn't run Sunday, then Monday would count as my two days off then I have to run Tuesday- Saturday, I should just sleep and see what happens."
So I had my debate of misery, slept a bit, checked the weather, went back to sleep (if we want to call it that), and then around 5:55am the rain stopped. Then the mind debate of misery was " should I run, should I not run, now it's almost 6am and that's so late. I can get a least four miles in, maybe five.".
"I'm up, just fucking do it already!"
And so I did. To my surprise, it was like a cool for morning at 69 degrees. The rain had cleaned the air and because my body had rested on Sunday, I had a good pace going. Even running an hour later, things look different around me. I saw a group of runners. Not sure if they were a running club or with the YMCA but they ran past me. Certain park gates were now open, delivery trucks were making deliveries. Completely different am vibe.
Running through the park, I ran on the divided walk/bike path lane. I thought about "Staying in your Lane." It can be a good or a bad thing. For instance, when I run in the city, I run in the bike path lane. I'm staying in my lane. Yet, cars like to drive in the designated bike lane. They clearly aren't staying in their lane. Or the people who like to be in everyone's business. Experts in everything and master's of nothing. I have colleagues who are trying to find their own path, yet they want to be in everyone's expert area. That is not ok. "Stay in your lane."
Then I thought about people who like to confine others to stay in their lane, stay in their boxes. By doing that, does not allow for someone's potential, skill sets, knowledge, or gifts grow. I've stayed in my lane and I haven't. There are benefits and repercussions for doing both. I think I've become more savvy and strategic about when to lane hop and when not to. :)